Something came up and I just can't hold it. Strange that after all this time, I realize that thing...that kind of feeling... it doesn't disappear but kept inside me for so long.... I don't know how I must or deal with this feeling......
oh my gos.... I felt so wrong about it but in the same time I can't lie to my self that I still have it....that feeling...... so strange.... so wrong.... but so true..... exciting but in the same time dangerous.....
I know I got to deal with it and get it done so I can get through...... does it? or is just my own feeling.... my own feeling playing tricks with my mind.....
somehow for this time, let me keep it for my self...... let me stuck in the past for a moment....
